Am I in love? — Yes, since I’m waiting.” The other never waits. Sometimes I want to play the part of the one who doesn’t wait; I try to busy myself elsewhere, to arrive late; but I always lose at this game: whatever I do, I find myself there, with nothing to do, punctual, even ahead of time. The lover’s fatal identity is precisely this: “I am the one who waits.
Roland Barthes, A Lover’s Discourse (via bookmania)


She asks when she’ll see me again,
but I’m hesitant to make love a second time.
That’s where I went wrong,
I was making love,
not having yet mastered the art of fuck.

Rarely is the first time
so silk smooth,
so seamless.
When I do engage in
a second time,
a third time…
I become…
Writing down your thoughts is both necessary and harmful. It leads to eccentricity, narcissism, preserves what should be let go. On the other hand, these notes intensify the inner life, which, left unexpressed, slips through your fingers. If only I could find a better kind of journal, humbler, one that would preserve the same thoughts, the same flesh of life, which is worth saving.
Anna Kamieńska, In That Great River: A Notebook (via bookmania)


I am learning
how to secretly love you
from an unquenchable distance,
tracing tangible threads too torn to connect
a churning trellis; our tree trunk
has been scraped at with our initials
for far too long now, and I smell
leaves burning, so I should
stop looking at roiling ringlets reconstructing
the broken, the broken, to be fixed.

I am learning
how to sketch
the perfect portrait
of a healed man
smiling with a broken silhouette.

I am learning how to catch the sun again. 


I Sniff Books


I Sniff Books

Breathing in, the air is sweet;
your scent still lingers on the
wings of a hummingbird, still,
unseen but there, silently
permeating receptive pores,
with the grace and elegance
of who you are. I still feel your
beauty through the distance
that separates us.
(via graciouswords)
to: a visitor.


make yourself comfortable
inside my head.
lay down in my brain,
i want you to stay.


* a person you know well and regard with affection and trust
* the one friend who is closest to you
* an older sister
* a younger sister
* a female offspring
* a woman who serves as a sponsor for a child at baptism
* a writer of poems
* satisfying aesthetic standards and sensibilities 
* highly favored and fortunate 
* a person who loves; 
* an ardent follower and admirer
* loved by someone
* bizarre
* fantastic
* intensely enthusiastic 
* free from external and mental control and constraint
* an intelligent but single-minded expert in a particular technical field 
* creates scripts of creative nature 
* marked by joy and pleasure
* a person who lives according to my own wishes and beliefs 
* a person who shows a tender and considerate and helpful nature
* a person who is inclined to forgive and show mercy 
* an expressor of strong emotions